Sunday, February 17, 2013

THE TRUTH OF IT!

... that one day all you have strived for is still... STILL not taking hold like you had hoped. When I write this I am still in mourning of my lifes dream, and what was lost... but wait... LOOK at all I have gained. I struggle with this not as often as I used to and that is good.... but it has come to a head again. This time because I have to face that fact that Charlie and I have been through a lot, if you have followed my blog from the beginning... you can understand where I am coming from. 

My horses are my life. I have no life without them. I aspire to do what is right by them, be a better rider and channel their minds to become what they are meant to be. I too have dreams that I would like to come to fruition. I want to event, be eventing & call myself an eventer. I am so close and know that it is now in reach. What is holding me back now is my uneducated horses. I have done all I can without investing in training. I feel that I am getting older and I cannot have this fear of getting physically hurt by Charlie any longer. I have been dealing with his antics for years and it is time he moves on. I know that God will provide someone that sees the potential in him and knows how to get the best out of him without getting hurt. I am working diligently on marketing him this week, and getting him into the hands of someone before Spring.



I have my trailer for sale too and hope that with freeing up that money I can develope Baby into a my novice hopeful. I am not a dressage person but do understand its importance in 3 day eventing. Dressage does develope the horse physically as well as the relationship between horse and rider. Seeing the upper level moves who wouldnt want to aspire to be in unison with their horse? Baby has lovely movement and its her time to develope that natural ability.

Also at this point I am focusing on finding a suitable mount that is more finished than either of mine currently are. Finding a horse that knows their lead changes, and transitions quietly and will always jump is important to me... and therefore I can work with the rest. Baby has good days and bad days, her airs above ground, her excitability and edgy attitude stir my soul. The occassional refusal that cannot be simply overturned by a rejump is unacceptable. That apparently is appytude. All these years I have had appy problems and thought it was me.... well I can say it may be because Im really not an appyperson? I thought I was though!

I dont know, I may not part with her, but to the right person... and only the right person.... I could. She was my first born, that I waited my whole life for.... now 7, is it fair to just keep her on the back burner as a secondary horse?
NO... 
they should all enjoy their lives to the fullest potential and she does have just that... 
Full of POTENTIAL!


Two great horses that I have cherrished all these years. 
Bred to raise them my way, trained them personally and gave them the building blocks to be great horses... 
I am so proud.
The best thing I can do is find the right people to continue their education in the eventing world.
Sadly :(

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