... that could mean alot of things.... really.
Coming to terms with losing that $76k yr income was hard. Having to let go of some horses that I loved, and facing the facts that affording horses in the northeast without a trainer or show opportunities for jumping just give up on that dream and have trail horses! ... but I couldnt just have trail horses, give lessons and have a boarding stable... unfortunately was not me.
THEN in 2011 after two hard depressing years of trying to make a marriage work ... I relented to a forced Divorce and terms of move out date Aug 30.... reluctantly, grieving and exhausted... I packed up whatever would fit in a 3H slant and headed toward KY, where my dreams would take form, I just knew it... it had to... I mean how could it not work? I could find work at a stable and be right in the midst of horse life and live the dream.... or so I thought. I cried all the way to NJ where I stayed overnight at my A. & U. while my horse slept standing in the trailer alongside my 84 FLH iron hoss.
My hay and stock tank and fencing, buckets blankets misc items... it was stuffed full and the LQ was boxes all the way to the door of everything but the kitchen sink. My dog in the front seat riding shotgun and off we went to NC to stay with a friend and enjoy trail riding with friends, some barrel shows and rodeos until heading to my secluded temporary home in western KY.
WOW... what fun NC was! I never imagined so many people doing everything with horses every weekend! WHAT! Eventing at Carolina Horse Park, Wagon and Carriage trails at the Moss Foundation, overnight camping especially for horse rides in Lumber River, Rodeos and Barrel racing everywhere.... sandy trails and great weather.... I didnt plan on leaving for a month.... and was told I could stay... I looked for work and ended up getting into Kitchen Design in an upscale design center in Southern Pines, right up my alley!
Deciding to stay and seeing where GOD was going to take me was the best decision I made... and actually it was all made for me... I just had to allow good things to happen to me ... for me... everything falls into place at the right time... if you allow it. SO SO BLESSED. I always say... I cant say what would have happened to me if I carried through with my plan in KY, who I would be or who I would be with... it would have been hard, harder... maybe wouldnt have made it without all the support I have found here in NC. ... I dont want to know how it would have worked out.... I am happy with how it has worked out. I never would have thought I would be here today... ENJOYING EVERY DAY!
I am OK.... I am LOVED... I am a BLESSING to those around me. I am THANKFUL... GREATFUL that I am doing what I love... HORSES. I have accomplished more with horses in 5 years... FIVE YEARS... than I have in having horses my whole life with the desire to do something with them. Yes I have done this and that... but the variety NOW of doing it all which is what I love the most! ... most importantly ... having someone BY YOUR SIDE to do it with you and loves horses as much as I do... is the cherry on top!
THANK YOU GOD ~ YOUR GRACE AND MERCY IN MY LIFE IS BOUTIFUL!
Looking forward to tomorrow every day!
Keeping positive and Looking UP giving Him ALL the Glory!